Queen Lea

      Jay and I have been through a lot in the past five years. We have both caused one another a lot of pain and hurt but at the end of the day we still love one another; even though things may never work out between us. We both have decided to go our separate ways and I feel that is what's best maybe one day we can rekindle some form of a friendship. Nobody will ever understand our connection like we do but sometimes what we want isn't always what's best for us. Even though this man can give me mixed singles such as saying "I  still love you so much. I miss you and think about you. I want to marry you" (but two weeks later you tell me you are supposedly going to marry another woman doesn't make sense to me but whatever) I know I can not go back down that road.     We share so many good times! I remember when we would say up for hours just talking about everything. We would sometimes talk until the sun came up. We would take drives and just listen ...

Last summer (June 2012) I had an internship at the children's agency. I loved it!! I had fun and it was an rewarding experience. while interning there I never knew I would meet somebody and fall head over kneels for them. In the unit I interned for there was this nice looking black man named Ricky (not his real name). I never really thought anything of him, he was just a nice looking man. One day I went out in field with him and we talked and got to know other another and flirted a little. As time went on I started to develop a little crush for him but I never expected that to go anywhere for he was in a relationship so it couldn't. While lets just say over the summer our hormones and desires got the best of us. The following week when we was out in the field at the end of the day he dropped me off back by the office and I hugged him and as we slowly pulled away....he kissed! A part of me expected it but also a part of me was shocked; I wanted to pull away because this wasn...

It all started when I was in the 8th grade. I had this crush on this boy named Jay.  When i was around him I would get butterflies in my stomach (even though this may seem cliche its true) and not know what to say...I had the biggest crush on this boy. We started to talk and flirt a little while in school. Then came our 8th grade prom....to make a long story short he was my first kiss. The one thing I'll remember about him besides his temper is those soft lips that I can kiss all night! I remember during school when we had recess we would go hide under one of the staircases by the exit and just talk ...well to be honest mainly make-out the whole time! Those were the days!.... Once we graduated form elementary school  we still kept in touch but after a few months we lost contact of one another. Four years later......... I was a Freshmen in college and currently in a relationship with Boy #1: Big Poppa. However every now and then ever since we lost contact I would think about ...

LOVE Love can be a beautiful thing but it can also hurt deep! You can love and hate somebody all at the same damn time and it sucks! With every encounter I have had with a man that comes into my life I learn more about myself and what to look for in a man. I may be young but I know what I want in life and what's important to me. I want to have a successful career and get married and have a family; and live a wonderful life through Christ. I have learned patience and how not to let my emotions get the best of me and be quick to go off on people...well boys mainly. I leave the situation get my emotions in check and then come back at a later date. I know that in that heat of the moment if say what I really want to say I would lose it and make the situation worse. When it come to boys I sometimes have to learn how to be prepared for the unexpected. Be prepared to hear what you don't want to hear. You just have to wish for the best but be prepared for the unexpected. In most of th...