Queen Lea

This post is really late but rather late then never! 😊 The year full of growing pains (2017) has officially ended and I couldn't be happier to be in 2018! 2017 was rough for me but I'm so looking forward to what 2018 has to come! I am really looking forward to this new year, focusing on myself and being the best woman I could be. Being a single woman who with no kids who doesn't have to answer to anybody is legit the best feeling in the world and I never thought I would feel this way. But I realized I could try different things, achieve all of goals and wishes now before I even think about settling down so I never say "I wish I would been able to do_____ before I settled down and had kids" One of my fabulous friends suggested I make of list of things I've always wanted to do and focus on achieving each thing during this new year so I made a list of 20 things I want to achieve this year ( some of things will take about two years to achieve but I will achie...

 After being hurt in one of the worst ways by Jay I wrote this to let out my feelings towards him after he betrayed me yet again.............      I'm sadden to see how things ended between me and you because this is not what I wanted I thought we can some how be friends and still be in each others' lives at a small level but you showed me that you don't want to be friends and hurt me in the worst way. If you think what you did was justified it wasn't. I wanted us to stop hurting one another and just remove romance from the equation and be friends but you couldn't do that instead you let another woman who is insecure and I don't know disrespect me! I NEVER DID THAT TO YOU AND YOU KNOW IT! I was shocked because I don't even know her and I don't want to be with you so I didn't understand her issue. I felt as if she was intimidated by me and what we had but she shouldn't be at all. I'm disgusted in your behavior. I'm going to be just ...

      Jay and I have been through a lot in the past five years. We have both caused one another a lot of pain and hurt but at the end of the day we still love one another; even though things may never work out between us. We both have decided to go our separate ways and I feel that is what's best maybe one day we can rekindle some form of a friendship. Nobody will ever understand our connection like we do but sometimes what we want isn't always what's best for us. Even though this man can give me mixed singles such as saying "I  still love you so much. I miss you and think about you. I want to marry you" (but two weeks later you tell me you are supposedly going to marry another woman doesn't make sense to me but whatever) I know I can not go back down that road.     We share so many good times! I remember when we would say up for hours just talking about everything. We would sometimes talk until the sun came up. We would take drives and just listen ...