Queen Lea

   On Friday night I went to a Sip & Paint for the first time and I loved it! One of fabulous friends took me out as a late Birthday gift and this night out came just around the right time with everything I've been going through I needed a night out just to get my mind off of things.    The Sip & Paint night took place in Clifton, NJ at Rock Bar. When we walked inside the first thing we did was get some WINE and food! We took out seats and waited for the instructor to start since it was snowing and the roads were bad we started later than normal to wait for those who were running late. The instructor was great and it was very easy to follow her instructions step by step. I was a little nervous going into this since I've never really painted a picture since I was a little girl in school and I am not artistic at all. However, the instructor made it very simple and easy which I loved.   My painting came out really good considering I am not good ...

 After being hurt in one of the worst ways by Jay I wrote this to let out my feelings towards him after he betrayed me yet again.............      I'm sadden to see how things ended between me and you because this is not what I wanted I thought we can some how be friends and still be in each others' lives at a small level but you showed me that you don't want to be friends and hurt me in the worst way. If you think what you did was justified it wasn't. I wanted us to stop hurting one another and just remove romance from the equation and be friends but you couldn't do that instead you let another woman who is insecure and I don't know disrespect me! I NEVER DID THAT TO YOU AND YOU KNOW IT! I was shocked because I don't even know her and I don't want to be with you so I didn't understand her issue. I felt as if she was intimidated by me and what we had but she shouldn't be at all. I'm disgusted in your behavior. I'm going to be just ...

      Jay and I have been through a lot in the past five years. We have both caused one another a lot of pain and hurt but at the end of the day we still love one another; even though things may never work out between us. We both have decided to go our separate ways and I feel that is what's best maybe one day we can rekindle some form of a friendship. Nobody will ever understand our connection like we do but sometimes what we want isn't always what's best for us. Even though this man can give me mixed singles such as saying "I  still love you so much. I miss you and think about you. I want to marry you" (but two weeks later you tell me you are supposedly going to marry another woman doesn't make sense to me but whatever) I know I can not go back down that road.     We share so many good times! I remember when we would say up for hours just talking about everything. We would sometimes talk until the sun came up. We would take drives and just listen ...

Last summer (June 2012) I had an internship at the children's agency. I loved it!! I had fun and it was an rewarding experience. while interning there I never knew I would meet somebody and fall head over kneels for them. In the unit I interned for there was this nice looking black man named Ricky (not his real name). I never really thought anything of him, he was just a nice looking man. One day I went out in field with him and we talked and got to know other another and flirted a little. As time went on I started to develop a little crush for him but I never expected that to go anywhere for he was in a relationship so it couldn't. While lets just say over the summer our hormones and desires got the best of us. The following week when we was out in the field at the end of the day he dropped me off back by the office and I hugged him and as we slowly pulled away....he kissed! A part of me expected it but also a part of me was shocked; I wanted to pull away because this wasn...