Why Can't I Let Go?!?

     When I think about all the good times we had together I just wish they never would of ended; all the smiles and laughs we had together. I think to myself everyday, "what happened to us?" "what could of I've done, WE done to make things better?". I know one can't turn back time but I just wish for one moment I could of gone back to that moment when you professed your love for me and held me in your arms; I felt safe and truly loved. You showed me how a woman should be treated and loved by a man. While I was with you I felt a sense of warmth and peace when we spent time together, even though it wasn't often since we were in a long distance. But every time we got the chance to spend time together I cherished every moment. I remember when you took me ice skating for the first time on Valentines Day, I Loved It! I've always wanted to go ice skating but i never remember saying anything to you, maybe you just knew me that well. That was so far one of the best Valentines Day yet.
    I have always been the person to look at the brighter side of things and look into the future and hope things would get better but I guess I was the only person in this relationship that thought this way. I had faith and always believed that things would get better; I mean what relationship doesn't has it's ups and downs but that is what makes the relationship stronger is the fact you are able to get through the ugly and the bad to get to the good. Unfortunately, I know now I have to find some way to let you go and move on with my life; my heart and mind are saying two different things but I have to do what's right for me at the end of the day. My heart is saying, "Aleah, you Love this man, don't let him go, you don't wanna always wonder 'what if you would of work things out, could things got better'. My mind is saying, "Your heart can't handle another heart break if he does what he did to you again, you can't truly trust him to never give up on you and care for your fragile heart".
   One's first break up is the hardest, especially when it comes out of nowhere and you thought things were getting better while the other person thought otherwise. Communication is key to any relationship! After all that has happened you will still have a place in my heart and my love for you will still be present for sometime until it turns into friendship which is going to be hard. I put a lot of effort and hard work into everything I do and maybe I just put in more than you were willing to so it just didn't work.

    I pray that one day, things will get better between you and me and maybe just maybe we will be able to have our second chance but as of right now I must move on and try to heal this broken heart..................Or maybe we can start over and have a fresh start? But can lovers turn into friends? That's my biggest question and I soon hope I get the answer.  


Young and In Love --> Young and Heart-Broken.....